So aside from trying to do all this holy work I need to be creative. I need to keep my mind from insanity. All day long my mental illness wraps around my neck like an albatross. I feel like I can’t get out from under it at all. And I don’t know I ever can if I never know where my son is. Doyle knows where he is. And how he is and what he’s up to. I never know. So I am in constant struggle. I feel Doyle purposely tortures me. And I don’t like to think like that. But I don’t know what else to think it is. So I am just going to my favorite go too recovery outlets and I tap to change my style from feeling persecuted and subjected to all your abuse abuse by everyone and I turn to what I can to make good mental choices that help me source my positive energy instead staying stuck absorbed with unholy dirty yucky evil. I know. It’s a lot to want to be sacred and sober with me. But that is the direction I go and I also enjoy just being productive. Day by day!
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AuthorHi, I am Tina. I am a Divorced Mother of one son. I am a recovering addict. I am Bipolar and had a severe psychosis breakdown this year. I blog every day. I love Art and creating Art and I hope to inspire others through my writing and the things going with rebuilding my life. Please feel free to leave a comment. I hope to change the world by letting you see what myself and other brave survivors are like! Archives
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