You did not want it
My fairytale Prince
But somebody does
They are claiming it now
And I know the face
The one that prays for me
My knight in shining armor
Only you would be
To take his place
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It won't be you. Don't you see
You did not want it My fairytale Prince But somebody does They are claiming it now And I know the face The one that prays for me My knight in shining armor Only you would be To take his place I'm so happy, it's clear to see
I'm shining bright I'm finally me That day I wanted it to end Because of all the pain I took His hand instead And finally grabbed the rein No more I screamed And so I let it all go All the haunts & madness That always hurt me so I still love him, it's forever true I also had to say good bye In a way I guess That only really says hi I know more than I ever did About His plan he has That I will never suffer again By those things from my past I don't want the former life And you can see I chose Into those icy waters For you I took a dove And what happens next Only God can tell But I can tell you this IT WILL be a fairytale Nothing to lose except your mind
That's what I did When I gave up Lost I sailed away The oceans sweet waters called my name And I floated I dove deep Held my breath for hours Rode the waves Up and down down and up And then I drowned And once you drown You don't care Anymore What is what Who's taking score You just don't care Then bliss comes God shines to blind you You can't see You don't want to Because it's too much It's perfect It's you And you lost nothing Nothing was lost And we lost everything My mind Our Heart The Soul Then it all came back. Even you Better than ever. ❤️ The candy left in a spot
I knew he loved me then As I sat down to eat Because there at my plate He had left me a tiny treat Something small it was Like a precious heart token Telling me what he thought The words which were not spoken Just like the crust he cut up In tiny pieces for me Telling of his same love By these little things that be The father in the cloak leaned over to me and said
Name them Pray to them Tell them you love them Know they are watching you And God forgives you And so that is what I did My angels in the sky How I mourned for you And to each I gave a name And whispered all my love I clasped my hands in two And 3 weeks later In my belly was you Big Sister
That was my role you see Keeping it away from thee To young to know how to protect Always so scared from their regret I took on the constant job to keep you both safe They were never around so I built us a cave Keeping you sheltered from the unseen You two never heard all of my nightmarish screams Too young to remember what I've done Trying to protect you from what they called sun And now you have left me in this stage When all I tried to do was shield you from graves Though that is what a big sister will do She will always take care to look after you. She has a face shaped just like a heart
Eyes with stars in them Lots of art That hangs every inch of every room From floor to ceiling He has consumed A place forever that the world will see The love she carried The only he Who was for her the ever lasting muse To shape her face like love Hearts will fuse One day more
I ran out the door You were on your way My greatest day It was so tough All that pushing and stuff But we were a team I did not even scream They said cmon it is time Daddy put down his sub sublime It got a little scary Things were a little hairy But then I heard you cry And then there were no dry eyes Because you were perfect as can be My beautiful child they gave to me In my arms you knew it was me I looked at you with surprise You looked right straight in my eyes Together we will always be Forever you and me The day I became your Mom And the day you became my son Knots
Tangled up and choking A spot upon my soul Never really knowing If these knots will unfold Not this I tell myself Not this pain again Not anymore welts Not anymore him Lifeless barely breathing Holding on to something I feel the loneliness come creeping Knowing he left me with nothing Not this aching pain I beg Not this stabbing tear Not anymore dread Not anymore fear Coming up for air again Seeing rays of light I feel a change inside him Shivering in sight Knots they come untangled Knots they come undone Knots sometimes triangles Knots sometimes our love I am a treasure
There is so much beauty inside me There is always a vulnerability that makes me forget There is unease about myself even though I believe so much in others I'm sick of giving away my treasures to those who don't care Though I know I will always try I am a treasure after all |
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May 2022
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