There are so many of us that are so naive. Not because we are stupid. Simply because we are wholesome. There are so many reasons for us good souls that can take face value the benefits of photoshopping apps. Or fun video dance things like tik tok or upload you tube tube videos and play around with Vudu channels and think nothing of it. Literally not knowing that the “jokes all on us”. Vudu. What a cute a name for watching shows. Honey. Let’s watch the Vudu channel to you may sound like to me you want to watch a channel that’s going to cut off a chickens head and let the blood drip all over your half naked body while you hump the dirt soil with the tribe dancing all around you in bloody chicken feathers ?????😳ummmm whaaaaa ?!? No I was thinking reruns Of Friends... what Vudu are you on. Hmmmm. 👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻High Penn. 👍🏻🤷🏼...
Here’s what I’m guessing. Vudu. It’s a Highly technical invention of the Bill Gates kind. Very sophisticated NASA big brother bull shit. A way to say ok this is how we catch all the Terrorist who got in because we didn’t have a wall🙄. Catch them in their homes while they watch TV. Which in reality all this really turns more into is these wholesome families like Penn & Kim practicing skits and maybe then next catch her in her thongs. 🤷🏼♀️ Maybe over in another town down the street the beach road it’s PJ night for the class of 2019. They have Boone’s farm and cute matching pajamas for a good girl fun night but once they hit that strawberry hill & Sangria and magic mikes on VIUDU demand... next prom queen has the idea to call prom king and buddies because mom and dad are passed out asleep now and all these gals down in the basement know how to sneak in Tommy 🤫and his really good weed he promises to hook them up with and who can say no to that prince hanging around all the Thomas the tank engine story time kiddos ... this Vudu magic is pretty much like the voodoo craft of its days because next you got 18 year old girls all naked out of their pjs at the most play boy sort of shin dig when Hugh Hefner would blush at. Alison Toker... Care to take over the rest of what happened to us that Henry Hairy night or who else might want to explain that wacky weed we smoked ...Except it was 1989 and maybe I walked through a patio door but wow just had a scratch 🤷🏼♀️ Sissy Spacek is my rep for this sugar shack protection plan I’m on and who has the videos. If it hadn’t been for wetting my cotton panties yo... might I have been married a long time ago?4/30/2020
I so want to ask Kim about this problem I am having when I do my dance videos ... and that is ... do you have to change out of your gran pans like I do? Because if I ever feel the need to get up and cotton eye JOE... I best grab some depends first. Good Lord. Just peed all over my underwear and shorts. Sigh. Is this just old age. Incontinence co eyed bro...the impacts of giving birth or something else. Yeah I sometimes don’t even want to know. But now that I’ve hung my cotton ply snow all wet and urinated on and my shorts abd I think did someone baseball bat my vagina whilst I slept one drunken night like Snow White. I mean sadly this horrific concept has crossed my mind. Which is so freaking sad. And honest to GOD I am not dragging a good family through this mud but I do wish to have some sort of support from people who love me enough as a human being with a really amazing heart who want to have hope for my mind to have rest from this gruesome nightmarish filth placed in my mind by litchis from the beastie boys.
So. Let us begin to do that. Adam. Please step home for a bit. 🌈🎥❤️〽️ First off. Anyone who uses children for gain is nasty. They should be in prison. They don’t deserve freedoms. They are sick. To use a child for ways to make profit is so messed up and demonic. I hope Josh Shapiro can do this job for me to identity all the nonsense in boys town once and for all. Because I think it’s time for a lot of to know the truth. But first I need to also explain how being used all my life has kept me from my best life. And I’m ready to let go. Even if it’s a best friend like Megan who is fun to drink and talk soul mates with I still don’t want her in my life if she’s a sock person unwilling to take accountability for her drinking problems. And I don’t want a jack ass like a Jason who is fun when he’s on biolar happy but dangerous and mean when he’s off in his manic mood unwilling to quit cocaine and other fucked up nonsense. As much as I might love “a brother” or “a son” or a “dad called Paul” I don’t need to be abused just to have those sort of role call men in my life. I don’t need a mark boyfriend who I really cared about who thinks it’s ok to hurt me even as a joke. Or as an instinct of his own ptsd issues. Essentially I don’t need to be making excuses for people who have potential but fail at the parts that matter most to me and my son. And I especially don’t need a husband who is short. And unappealing. And not who I want. But tells me it’s ok to settle. So spare me all.
This is going to be really hard to do. And I don’t know I’m ready. But I must accept that when it comes to Megan Paul Kathy Ashley Heather Doyle Jason ... that I’m better off with out them. Do they have to die for that to happen? I just don’t know. It’s not up to me. I know that I can forgive them to the point that I personally don’t have anymore to say to any of them. And do not wish them harm. But I also sadly know my papa’s plan. And that is this, any rabid infested cocaine lsd crack ... addicted being is not going to live long on planet earth. I know this because he gave me a doctor who told me that if you’re addicted to any sort of substances (whether you acknowledge it or not) then you are on life or death sentence. Life if you don’t use it death if you do. I believe that Doctor. I know eventually he’s right. I also know that when you do choose to get off these vices that you act and behave as a person who seeks forgiveness and communication. So the fact that Megan Jason Paul Kathy Doyje ... aren’t doing that with me only says that they really don’t want my forgiveness. I’m pretty sure they don’t think they did a thing wrong. But again it’s all up to God. So if he takes their lives then that’s between God and them. I just know that I’m alive today because I chose to be sober. And act sober. And help others get sober. So if I never see any of these people again it’s sad yet God is so much better at keeping me safe than I ever am. I seem to let any one jack in my bed. Until 2015 when I stopped. Dear Penn Brother ... is this a Kennedy conspiracy ...let me know through some Kim & Penn video.4/30/2020
I can’t stand when someone asks if something is “ok” knowing that even if it’s not there’s nothing one can do about it. I also hate that a meeting last minute takes over a patient’s scheduled. Or that while all this is taking place 98.7 radio says @dont you hate when your therapist doesn’t get hammer time. I kind of laugh though. Just tells me a hot man does love me and that Ex wife can’t take the heat in my kitchen. 🤷🏼♀️
Which is psychotic. Sad. Disturbing. Waste of money to break her bank over. But not my worries. God knows the duchess and doubles. And I have so many ways to therapy myself because that’s all I ever want to do. I love to be honest. Real. And can easily adapt to changes when they happen. There are no needs to get attached to therapy. If a therapist is ethical they would never cancel an appointment like that. And when they get their ethical pieces back then in sure my real therapist and I will do just fine next week. Because I trust her. But not her office. ❤️ I really do miss my buds. My ear buds. That friend who just gets you. You don’t have to explain “why” you carry a torch for a guy when you’re married to another to your best friend. So that when you bring that one CD on your girls gets way weekend that explains it the 2 of you don’t mind listening to it 80 thousand times on repeat over 4 bottles of champagne 4 red wine ... 80 beers... 4 pack of cigarettes ...because she has a man too that matches her heart that also isn’t her husband. So the 2 of you just cry laugh and have zero judgements that either settled for 2 short guys had their babies but really want & dream of our tall soul mate... which isn’t the same guy. But the same sort of guy we both love. A guy everyone thinks we shouldn’t love. It’s sort of an unspoken contract she and I had that it was ok to long for what we didn’t have by living vicariously through our Sex and the City analogies of it all through Carrie. Or through Avril’s hey you I don’t like your girlfriend ...I’m the mother fucking princess. It’s been our bond ever since we met to understand every detail about souls that mate through the lyrics in the songs that prove it.
I miss Megan a lot. We met at our temp jobs back in the early 90’s. I’ve said before she gave me the Counting Crows August and Everything After cassette tape ... I handed her Cracker ...this is cracker soul ...pretty profound to think of it all now and the mighty connections we make in our lives. I knew Megan was an important piece of my puzzle as soon as we met. Some sort of woman important not just to me but maybe a brother. And it was easy to be friends. My goodness. We loved all the same stuff. Mostly wine and cigs. And a lot of both. But these were also the thorn in our entire tumultuous friendship. Toxic poison always causing either of us a lot of suffering. We both have been really injured while drinking. And it’s sad that when I got sober her family and mine couldn’t have tried to be a family. I know we are not just friends. I would guess she and I may even be cousins. Because we do so much a like. Either way to me it wouldn’t matter at all if we are blood related or not. I’d just want her sober. Neither of us with our conditions should be drinking. And I can say this because anyone who cares about Megan as much as I have knows I’m right. I know I’m right because I am an alcoholic. So I know when I meet another alcoholic just like me. So I guess part of me is hoping and praying I may have saved Megan in my prayers to meet in recovery. Although it takes a really healthy person who wants what I do. And that’s the truth. No matter what Megan. I guess we all have this insatiable appetite for whatever we are hungry for. Most of us in today’s tech minds seem to need 24/7 entertainment ...of some sort. I do think this Penn H is my brother. 4 years younger. Him and his twin Tim. My other brother. It explains a lot. And I will have my family. I hope it’s their sentiment too. My son needs more than just a one sided view on family life. Because over on his Dad’s side he has the short Asian Irish and of curse the Italian Picasso version. 🤷🏼♀️Then over here with me he has Swedish Scottish French & and more Picasso I tale Yam jam giant fun. Either side I know loves skits. It’s just I baby help my side is 10 times hotter. 🤷🏼♀️We started off with this clean slate that remained shiny because we are the giants. We are the original clan. Doesn’t mean that each side doesn’t shine. But if you’re dull because you don’t keep things clean and honest but instead play dumb and blind to the real truth that my family is amazing. And even when you split us all up and shuffled us around we still shines on our own. Rather than Doyle’s family making some pact to stay together no matter what the secrets ... so Adam should know all his uncles. His clan.
But you know it’s all about balance. My brain is really hurting by all this ABundance of a marathon of all my long lost family running through my brain. It’s so much. I want a reality that helps me be healthy for my son. I want support in my life not just a t shirt that I ran along side this Holderness Video marathoning thonging video after video with Subliminal messages that say we are over here T.... no. I want my family here with me. I want my son to have another Uncle who knows the UVA ropes besides Doyle’s brother. I want as many good men in Adam’s life that exist and can be there for him any time day or night if I can’t or Doyle and Peggy can’t. It’s fair for Adam to have the family he deserves on both sides. It’s so unfair for Betty DeGuzman to be so damn selfish and sick to keep Adam from these good men. Forget me. Adam should know Penn! Know Kim! Know their kids. And they should know Adam. Because that’s family. And my family will be there for my kid whether Bernie & Betty like it or not. Betty says I chose to be all alone but honestly I couldn’t take her creepy nasty dirty bathroom family when my peeps are way more clean talented taller funnier creative ... shall I go on Betty Clinton? ... than the wanna be cruisers ... 🤣😂🇺🇸 Cheaters suck. Prince Harry is a douche bag. Men who lie to get a girl in their bed are assholes. Dirt bag dads the worse. Women who lifetime movie stalk me pathetic and stupid. But when a hero a brother a friend an expert and good people step in to make sure you all quit your problems on my sweet life set up to protect us then I say
thanks to an amazing nation I called the great U S of A 🇺🇸 To any cheater in my phone pack up leave before DOG comes in 5. Something extremely frightening was told to me back in 2018 fall while living in Leland. A golf community full of mostly old perverts. 🤷🏼♀️🇺🇸Now. Not all. But enough for me to know what former FBI & CIA might get away with living in a cute little hood with some very beautiful mothers and children who are at the pool all day in their swim suits watching kids. I’m not kidding. Leland has hot moms!!!! You think made up milf fergie is what these guys want? 😂🤣😂No. not at all. Sorry to say they know all the MTV finds all too well. They want the real cow’s milk. The real house wife’s not caked up in make up lactating those real breast. I mean ask Doyle how my milk breast looked in bed. Size G baby. 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙀Yeah. Those full breasts. Leaking milk. And not just in the lazy boy as we know. Poor things. You don’t regally know how it really is do you all agree giving birth and being a real bad ass birthing bitch goddess!!! 🔥🎥UU ...So these gouys with their secret Atari buttons and Atari buttons plus what ever else they know about their prey and target which was on a secret list of urls hoa and other high access codes they easily can get. So it really scared me what my friend told. I mean really scared her too.
She told me that one night she had this crazy instinct to literally get up at that moment and run to her youngest daughter’s room. In her bed appearing to be sleeping she had a necklace in her hand and was proceeding to put it all in her mouth to swallow. Now. Imagine that scene on a child porn channel. Adding that clip by secret cameras next leading to another child in her bed Sodomizing a grown man ?!? And let me tell you all. The Clio the movie and the child and men exist. Do not for a second believe it doesn’t. These men are using all sorts of variety of illegal camera footage they are getting straight from your own homes security cameras and where ever the homeowners or whomever put other illegal cameras. It’s a fact. And they use these techniques to scape scale and re-scene film so it’s harder for the FBI to recover exactly who’s who. The photoshopping of today is so sophisticate. If a molester has a child he’s sick of he’s taking your children’s face and covering them over the ones who he’s disgusted by their filth locked up in a trailer. He wants fresh face. Not the same shit he sees on MTV garbage. These men want the real blood. Not robots. It’s sad and diabolical but it is the fact. And this morning when I wake up and find something I kept on a safety pin that I called my “good luck charm” opened and missing it all sort of cane together how they do this to me. See. In another time of crusade and the Medieval rule their was a sort of magic that has been removed access today because of witches who cheated at nasty games. What has been replaced with it these modern times is all the same it’s just called “Technology”... a different form of witchcraft if used this way. Think about it. It’s simple. If a nasty witch wants she can get an application. Make a phone number with yours and begin “casting” “spells” literally by casting a mirage of false information that gets all your friends like Susan and Jennifer ... to think you are a terrible friend. What this witch didn’t Understand though is that I don’t need friends. I am saving children. So if I lose friends to safe Victoria (Who by the way completely understands what I’m doing 👍🏻🌈)...or any of your girls or sons...I am ok then “losing” friends so I can tell you all how nasty men also know how to use a remote to make me do things when I sleep. Like lose my good luck charm. Almost just like my friends child came close to swallowing that necklace I was made to unhook a safety pin and put it with my husbands little treasure box. Because it may be too dark for you all to see what happened by not my man. And not any of us who are God’s angels who know when our loved ones are being fucked with. Which is why my friend knew to 🇺🇸 rush in 🇺🇸 Just in the nick of time before they tried to kill her child for what she knows because she’s Clairvoyant just like her blood line aunt Tina. 🥰 So. Different than my sad horrible past life in Louis XV dungeon .... this is a techno problem of modern days that myself good parents and families friends will all connect the dots of this nasty illegal porn ring and I have the names of all the top players ... eh Clinton’s. Eh Prince Andrew. Eh Harry. If my little luck charm isn’t with my man and I have to continue to suffer by these mind games and little sweaty looking bard bag shrimps I am going to ask all my gentle giants plus some Father's of mine who are so powerful you will wish you never even thought to know me when they come to collect that Atari button. 🆘push all your location buttons if you want them to be nice. I want the torture on me to quit. And please find out what helping hands knows. Now. All yours WPD. I’m pretty sure they know more than me this shady cocaine nasty palm doom room portal mess more than me and who’s nasty around here.
Me...I’m 49 and haven’t had a drink since 2014 or relationship since pretty much my divorce and live a muring life. My guess is you all have a nasty sugar daddy ring in this town with some pretty wealthy princes a few presidents & a lister Hollywood’s. I will ask GOD to find out any business in this town acting shady. |
AuthorHi, I am Tina. I am a Divorced Mother of one son. I am a recovering addict. I am Bipolar and had a severe psychosis breakdown this year. I blog every day. I love Art and creating Art and I hope to inspire others through my writing and the things going with rebuilding my life. Please feel free to leave a comment. I hope to change the world by letting you see what myself and other brave survivors are like! Archives
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