But the shows are over now. And I wish they were still on because they were really taking my mind off everything. It’s truly a challenge for me to relax. Because I’m anxious a lot. It’s getting better the more my mind isn’t scared I will never see my kid again. Or that I can’t save any child. Or that I might not “ever make it”. I just tell my mind you’re a good woman. You’re a special soul with a lot of love. And I believe in God. I believe in me. And I love the wholesome feeling I get when I watch Friends. I like knowing not everything in the world is scary. But I still can’t get images out of my mind either. I really love how much I care and I don’t want to change and become harsh. I will however be okay with hating anyone who blocks peace and safety for children. It’s just sick. And they don’t deserve life if they hurt children. And if they hurt children they hurt us all.
I say all the same things. But if your feeling like you need someone to know you’re not alone in this world I’m here. I’m here alone too hoping for better days. It felt good to laugh even though I’ve been hurting a lot.
Oh for the record I’ve not called or texted that loser dude once since 5-18-18. That’s pretty damn awesome.