It is sad though that working people are considered healthy when they go to the pool and consume lots of alcohol. You know. Of course I know. I used to consume lots of alcohol too. And then take care of my kid and go to work the next day completely hungover. Makes no sense. I will say that being bipolar does make it a challenge to be consistent in a job also. So it's hard to fully compare what I could do as a job and feel safe doing it. I think about just applying for work. Yet look at me. I am really sick. I can try to stabilise my illness and I do really great work with all I'm up against. And...
You know all on my own. Though it's still always going to be that I'm bipolar. And therapy medication or just having a good day doesn't promise anything. Though I'm working really hard to figure it out.
I just can not always deal though with others when you know others are dealing. Get it. They will. Lol. But you know. What I mean. I am so happy to be alive today. I know God has a big plan for me. I love my art work. I love all the crazy stuff I am wiling to say here in order to make an honest legacy out of my name and in the name of God. I can't help knowing what I know with out having real concrete evidence. But I believe I am right. I like to say I'm always right. Why. Because I always am. So you know. This only makes sense if it does. I'm an artist. I am lots of things. I am Tina. And I'm forever in love with the man who brought me back. Thank you.