I hope I have some family who would be able to understand this. To appreciate I love being free of the devil on me. I love pleasing GOD. It does however separate me as a minority now since most people do drink alcohol. I am tired. Being sober minded attracts me to peace more and more each day which also exposes what isn’t contributing to peace. When you’re sober everything is so clear. So much is masked by addiction that once you open your sites back to GOD you seem to have a different vision for most of the world and my tolerance for evil is gone. Alcohol no longer dilutes the presence or disguises the devil as my friend. I am with Jesus. If you don’t care about that it’s ok. But I do care about it greatly. Even though I wrote all these blogs today I still think I could write a million more in the effort to find children and free the world of suffering. Because if the world was right I would be seeing it in much better shape than it is. So I can only do so much. But if Hollywood is more inserted in parties and fame instead of family then I have to put a stern example that family for me comes first.
I don’t want to be all alone trying to see who is safe to be around now that I have my soul back to guard. But that’s what this is. I have my soul and it’s mine and I don’t want to ever almost lose it again. If you have your soul and eternal life then you get it. I don’t justify myself I explain it only because maybe this time it sinks in for you like once it did for me. Do you all know how long I suffered from an addiction? 3 decades of painful turmoil mixed up with the devil trying to negotiate my existence and significance to my Father GOD. This matters to me. I almost forsaken everything including my child for a stupid fucking glass of wine. Imagine had I accidentally killed myself and son because I was too drunk while Doyle was on his many business trips because I left my door unlocked after I passed out. This is what I have chosen and it seems I will have to alone a lot because unlike my therapist I can not be in a home with alcohol. It’s still would invite Satan in to me even if it weren’t me drinking it. And you only get that if you really know what it means to live in a sober house. It means no booze period. I can’t help what’s around me. But in my home there is no access for Satan. Not even one beer. I don’t believe in alcohol at all. Yet I am not going to be removing it from the world either. It’s a temptation I have to resist. And I am able to live free of it.
I hope I have some family who would be able to understand this. To appreciate I love being free of the devil on me. I love pleasing GOD. It does however separate me as a minority now since most people do drink alcohol. I am tired. Being sober minded attracts me to peace more and more each day which also exposes what isn’t contributing to peace. When you’re sober everything is so clear. So much is masked by addiction that once you open your sites back to GOD you seem to have a different vision for most of the world and my tolerance for evil is gone. Alcohol no longer dilutes the presence or disguises the devil as my friend. I am with Jesus. If you don’t care about that it’s ok. But I do care about it greatly. Even though I wrote all these blogs today I still think I could write a million more in the effort to find children and free the world of suffering. Because if the world was right I would be seeing it in much better shape than it is. So I can only do so much. But if Hollywood is more inserted in parties and fame instead of family then I have to put a stern example that family for me comes first. I just feel this all ties to Megan Markel and an elite Cult out of Hollywood that Steven Seagal might even be involved in.
And I will get it ALL Mel Gibson. All of it. You all can keep trying to cover up your tracks but God will keep exposing every single damn one and mail you better get back to my door and tell me where your allegiance is is it with Jesus or is it with Prince Harry. 😂🚩🚩🚩🚩 https://www.the-sun.com/news/670892/meghan-markle-prince-harry-sale-mel-gibsons-mansion/amp/ It’s just getting more and more clear to me that the man who raped me in 1986 is guilty as fuck that little Hollywood Oscar... I felt I heard from the spirit world that Kelly was in the hospital with black and blue marks on her face and then laceration on the bottom of her chin and that somebody is trying to use her story as a cover-up for their own and I’m going to find it out and I don’t care how good you all are a gaslighting cheating photo shopping or whatever the fuck you all do I’m way better at the truth so help you all. https://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-2402408/amp/Kelly-LeBrock-comes-hiding-photoshoot-reveals-toll-drugs-divorce-took-her.html Oh and Arnold Schwarzenegger if you still have that sword my long long long ago husband from the medieval times will be picking it up. Yep. This is a question posed to Josh Duhamel Jason Kirkpatrick Mark Taylor and any other father out there who’s going through or went through a divorce and has a child... if your child’s life depended on it could you stay sober and stop having sex with just anyone in order to protect your kid?
If you understand that question then you know why I am sober and why I stopped having sex. What would you all do if you made a list of people you think want you dead and it’s so long and even your own “mom” dad” some presidents cousins sisters ex husband mother in law Pope ...is on it. 🤷🏼♀️Well fucks I say nope. You’re not killing me. In fact you are the key components for actually giving me so many reasons to live. So thank you to anyone hiring escapees from prison to kill me. Thank you. You’re weapons against me are my greatest tools for cheering up. You make me feel special. And though your intentions might not be good towards me mine are. 🤷🏼♀️They bring me closer to GOD. If that’s possible to get any closer to my papa bear. But I know you’re scary. But it’s so much scarier not being with Jesus. And that’s all I have to say on that matter.
That and my body guards now at my door are my therapist Alan 😁and the last guy I fucked, Mark Taylor. Thank you both for watching my door. I’m sure Mark brought his peashooter to keep me safe. At least that’s how I imagined it in my mind that both Alan and Mark will make sure I stay safe since I’m the angel of God. 😇😇😇 And I just don’t think that it’s that wrong to imagine that men actually protect a girl like me from a criminal on the loose. Yep. I just between you and I in this blog I heard they caught that runaway bride and The con artist on the side of the road tied to a tree? Danks. The day I lost my car keys and house keys at the Virginia fine arts Museum when Jessica the nurse from Williamsville wellness was there ....we got it don’t we Jason. Yes. Doyle called me at the Virginia fine arts Museum to tell me that they called Doyle with my house keys and car keys and they had found them at their lost and found and I’m going to investigate everything about Jessica the nurse from Williamsville Wellness along with my former friend Kristen Fisher from Williamsville the hypnotist. How many people had copies of the key to my house a Tuckahoe Creek and you better on it before it all owns all of you. I told you Meghan Markle if you know me at all then everybody will LE know you do. 😁💍🧻🧻🧻🧻🧻🧻 I just want to keep reminding the world that you don’t fuck with God and his grace. Ever. https://www.wavy.com/news/national/alabama-prison-official-missing-after-escorting-inmate/?fbclid=IwAR2G27EsVLhprADc6usiZ2CiGlaOA3C5GtSzdD5w6OSrnYQvAN7xD9JpAnU
This is me and my friend Trish at a coffee shop and I don’t think Trish would mind me posting a picture of two beautiful friends right America and Bill Clinton? Trish the person who helped me get my stuff to the hospital in April 2015. She had a key to my apartment that I had left for her under my doormat. ❤️Trish is from the same small hometown that Doyle’s fraternity brother Jay Cox is from and today everybody’s going to know everything about Jay and how Jay went to college with Doyle ...it should be a really good story because maybe Jay knows Megan Markel when he worked at that Victoria’s Secret and maybe he knows that Jeffery Epstein ... it’s just such a small world. Oh and on the night that lady Diana died it was Jay who talked me into Doyle’s bed because I got too drunk and I Peed in Doyle’s bed and then I woke up and found out that lady Diana was dead isn’t that crazy Sarah Braxton Keith I find it very strange that my friend trash looks like the security officer or whatever that’s missing in this photo but I’ll leave that up to Homeland security and the FBI and anybody else who is investigating September 11, 2001 right Hillary Clinton oh yes so right... are you loving me today Donald Trump? Lmk. What if Megan Markel has an undiagnosed mental illness that is unique only to her and that is she wants to be every single hot female that ever existed because she’s really man trapped in this women mind playing drag costume characters. Maybe this specific mental illness is only all Megan Markel’s. Meaning No one else in the world is quite as consumed with an identity crisis where they want to be any one in the world that they define to be famous and interesting. One minute she wants to be Christina Applegate the next minute Kelly Lebrock after that she wants to be Kate Middleton the next princess Diana and then soon she’s copying Angelina Jolie and anybody else that she can because she has no originality to be her own persona nor does she want to be who she is because that would require truth? What if Megan Markel’s claim to fame is that she has the most famous historical mental illness known to man called the Meghan Markle copycat everyone disease? I bet am on to some thing. But just in case Josh stein run those plates of that red truck with a front license plate that says cat with a big bull horns on it. See if Maegan Markle in Matthew McConaughey ever had a role in a steakhouse having a little sexy sexy triple X Magic Mike porn hub... you know back in rumble fish.
https://cinemacats.com/hard-to-kill-1990/ https://www.google.com/amp/s/thejoedown.blog/2022/01/16/the-joe-down-reviews-hard-to-kill/amp/ (Is it Kelly Lebrock as a nurse or Sue Smith is a nurse or Steven Seagal is John Doe in a coma???). So hard to kill. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kelly_LeBrock https://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-2402408/amp/Kelly-LeBrock-comes-hiding-photoshoot-reveals-toll-drugs-divorce-took-her.html 😬I really believe in my theory you all and I think that Megan Markle has such an inapt ability to accept her self as who she is but she has to do everything everybody else does just in order to feel connected to the human race. And if that’s how she was able to land Prince Harry it sure does make sense because she could be Britney Spears the juggler the supermodel the Kelly Lebrock weird science lady ... the lawyer the nurse mom Ex wife ...the Tina DeGuzman pathetic girl next-door who had to eat at a steakhouse with a salad bar plus a Kate Middleton ... Then wear lady Diana’s perfume and underwear ... well no wonder she trapped the portal poor boy.... Because I’m pretty sure at one time in his life he probably wanted to fuck all of us woman. Right Halle???? But the only one he’s never touched is me is what I’m thinking. The holy grail. ❤️ Kelly Lebrock if you were high on cocaine and fucked up on a good crazy buzz in London do you think he would ever have ridden harry like a cowgirl? Asking for TMZ. I mean I know there’s a crazy age difference but isn’t that the whole thrill of a weird science lady. 😂🤣😂🤣🧻 But in a nutshell I would bet all of Michael Vick’s money that the possibility of Megan Markel having a YouTube channel called Sue Smith could be pretty high stakes. Yep. I think it’s pretty easy to guess how much role-playing might get Harry’s dick hard. Have a nice day Prince Harry because you’re going back to the future. Hee hee. Oh and Megan Markel if you drove a Porsche to Virginia Beach while I was staying there in 2017 and parked it outside of a Rite Aid that camera crew got your ass on camera if it was you but I’m pretty sure it was right cabin number six at first Landing State Park. Oh is this going to be a great day. Thank Charlie the dog. Yep. My mates of our holy savior. We are all back. 💪🏻✝️
And this I know everyone will wish they had listened to me when I said to stay off me and Christ. Let’s begin the holy land now. I believe in God, the Father Almighty, creator of heaven and earth. Do you believe in Jesus Christ? I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord, who was conceived by the Holy Spirit, born of the Virgin Mary, suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried; he descended to the dead. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Apostles%27_Creed#Rite_of_baptism Yes it’s true and my Picasso blue blood relations do tend to get a little chunky don’t we baby. ❤️I love you. Aye you.
Now can you and your wife give me a little favor.... I think he will ... I do too. Amen. I would like to thank you king for sending the family to the Westin hotel when I was there for the eyewitnesses and the DNA and what’s to come of man who raped me with a roofie at the Westin Hotel December 2017. Let’s just say the man who raped me he’s fucked by HLS. Yep. I’ll look forward to reading the treaty very soon. Danks mate. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ibdtKd4jmWw I told you all to never underestimate God & who he assigns to protect his daughter TINA. Lands END. The reason that I share who the name of my therapist is at Family Ties is that no one has to doubt anything I say they can easily look into every single person that has access to my health records and find out if they support me or if they don’t. Because the goal for me is to stay alive for as long as I possibly can regardless if I get old my boobs sag my butt sags or I don’t have any energy anymore to go for long walks or even have sex with a man again... I want to live the life that I have always deserved to live even if it’s not exactly as I wished it were. So the therapist at Family Ties should have absolutely zero problem with me telling you all who he is because he is my therapist and there is nothing to hide in my life. Any of any of you have something to hide in your life that is never going to be my problem ever. I have the right and I also deserve to you have healthy therapy. I don’t need a therapist acting like he told me that we weren’t meeting next week when I definitely would have remembered that. But once again that’s the way people know how to get away with a lot of stuff by claiming that what they say is their truth. If my therapist believes that he told me that we were not meeting next week then he can believe that all he wants and in the meantime for the next two weeks until we meet again I will have the FBI and homeland security find me someone who can help me with my therapy ...while that therapist is out at a wedding or wherever he’s going. That’s all there is to it Buddy’s it’s me improving my life regardless if any of you want to be involved in that or not. I also have the right to feel a bit annoyed that I thought I was having therapy next Friday to come to find out that I am not that’s a feeling that anyone would have if their appointments were canceled ...so ask my therapist how he feels when his appointments with others get canceled or they never show up again. 🤷🏼♀️Sometimes even a husband can runoff with someone hotter than their therapist hubby... 👍🏻You are just never know what Pandora’s box opens when you all open it to. 💋💍
It’s a question I have all the time ... who’s ethical and evil isn’t and the thing is that we all have the right to feel annoyed & frustrated if we feel we are being lied to and then we can decide after those feelings if our therapist or whatever that has contributed to our annoyance are trustworthy. Sometimes it takes a little bit of extra investigation into a matter to truly know if someone is saying they didn’t go to a hotel for lunch or if someone is saying they did. How would I know what kind of things my therapist likes in his bedroom nose ass mouth ...just because he’s a therapist makes him immune to naughty sex? What if my therapist likes to have 10 women in his bed or eight men or 18 little toys how would I know. And I really don’t need to know unless that Therapist personal private life starts to impact my public one. 😄And if I’m not having sex because of that well then Houston there will be a problem. And everybody will know it because to mind game me or mess with my life or claim you’re doing this but you’re really doing that is doing yourselves the injustice not me. And again I’m not saying that is Alan my therapist I am saying that it should not be Alan my therapist ever taking advantage of his patients. And that’s what homeland security FBI and everyone else will make sure of today... ok Joe Biden. Right cousin Tim and bestie Chris ketchup Heinz. Yep. If you all keep denying me my sexual relations with my best sex partner then that is going to really cost everybody a price. From now on you’re going to treat me as if I’m the only person that matters in getting a really good therapist got me everyone. And don’t take my words and mix them up and claim that I think that Sue Smith is not who she said she is all I’m doing is taking her video and comparing it to my experiences and things that I’ve seen over my life and making a correlation between the two ...how would i fucking know who Sue Smith even is when I don’t even know if that’s her real fucking name or anything else. All I know is when it comes to my friend Jason from rehab I will do everything in my power to make sure that he is protected by the entire universe. How do you like that for a best friend honey. ❤️🇺🇸 If anybody out there doubts my power of persuasion to God & Christ in getting my way on ethical therapy then you all will be in for a real truth. OK I am getting the whole entire nation involved in my healthcare and we are going to take every single one of my therapists documents submitted to Trillium along with my Medicare and Medicaid and we are going to get to the bottom of this right this second hope you’re ready Family. Everyone’s goal today will be finding me someone to fuck and that person better be my fucking soulmate or you all will never fuck again. How do you like them fucking apples... But you all won’t think sex is so overrated then. RE Stuart
me To Tina DeGuzman Apr 30 at 11:27 AM 1 attachment This is me in 1989. Same year Ted Bundy was executed. I was 18 years old and dated a guy name Stuart from Virginia ... he six years older than me. He never told me if he was in a serious car accident or not with some woman that lost her license in Fairfax in 1987, but I wonder if he was. i just sent this email to myself. You see in 1989 I went to visit Stuart in Fairfax Virginia and he took me to this baby shower party where his ex girlfriend was. Oh boy did she glare me down with those wicked eyes. I just wonder if Megan Markle is the age she says she is or can she twist her age here & there with certain stem cells photoshopping and blood/plastic surgery. If anything it would make such a good show. Essentially vampires that are immortal only because science makes it so. Hmmmm. Like I said it could be HBO billions and put Tom Cruise’s little sunshine PR company out of business with my new one called sunny... it’s really sunny public relations. It’s just once you see something you can’t unsee it and all I see now when I look at that picture of Sue Smith is such an identical looking one to a weird science movie I saw back in 1987. Being that Sue Smith is so tall and Kelly Lebrock is so tall and they also looks so much like each other it’s just crazy weird science isn’t it boss. Johnny Depp's Lawyer is Meghan Markle's Doppelgänger |My Take on the Amber Heard Trial| https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=BrnhhTS5k48 |
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