I have met some really cool people in the last few months. I wish I could say that's all I meet. I wish I could say that by my side is the man I deserve. Yet that's not the case. Part of me is convinced that he is not going to show up until this nonsense at my pool and around here is taken care of. That's a bummer. You know. That I'm alone because people are foul and my husband can't stand them. So he has to stick undercover. But you know. He and I have always made a promise. And that is no matter what, the kids of the world come first. It just has to be this way or what else is the point. But I know he has a plan. He's a giver too. Just not like me. Har har. But he is a man who has a job to do to protect God's family. US. I believe in him. My forever husband. Why would I not have one? And why would he not love me. It would mean that none of you would have any relationship. Think about that.
I say this all to remind me that just because I give so much away doesn't mean you also get to take from me. I've learned so much about biding your time in sobriety. Because you learn that there is so much more than just you. All selfish behaviour leaves and you wish to make an effort to all good people. Not just self driven satisfaction. If you check out my Facebook (because you care about me) you will see that I've stumbled on some interesting information about people and their disgusting drug habits. It's going to be important that you know this. As it's a gift too. Get sober. That's the only option. Because you're going to be on trial for all you did to me and my gifts.