This can get complicating to even me if I let my loneliness consume me. Let’s say I fuck some random guy and my mate has to take over that man for 30 days or 15 years or 1 hour. He owns that man. And that man can turn sour. Some men of mine can walk off satisfied that they provided KING a spot for an amount of time. Some let their ego take over. And clearly I can be attracted to any bone of my original man. Even if he’s missing teeth and has a tiny prick. But ultimately a body will show signs of unearth if my husband wants me to have something better. Healthier. And if that man who thought he was ok with this wants to find his soul then it’s the deal to let him free. He has chosen CHRIST. And that’s a good thing. But tricking me into that deal and playing on me that a man never intended to appreciate me as my husband does is not a deal. And I look at that again as GRACE. Either my husband and GOD have chosen this man’s shell or someone wants to be that shell is all left to interpretations. It’s a lot like a vampire but this time a vampire is a good thing. Not immortal but infinite. No real soul ever dies. ... it’s a lot. And we have forever ... so think about it all. Think about it as all good stuff in our future.
You can not fake this Meghan. So better to start behaving as if GRACE is the only option.