I am also reading all day every day about what's going on out at standing rock. And all my prayers and efforts to send them to these brave souls are one of my main goals and focus. It's what I can do. I do that. I pray. I don't come up with dumb memes meant to harrass people. I don't grab water hoses and water down beautiful people who are trying to save the very water you just wasted. Truly. What the fuck is wrong with you all? I mean seriously. Then I look at all my junk mail wondering why it is we have so much stuff. Then I look around my apartment, why do I have so much stuff???
Oh my God. I just threw away some stuff. Really it was stuff like sticks. Not really much of anything but I just could not get rid of it. It was so hard. And though I am very clean and can easily move around my apartment, I noticed right away that I have become somewhat of a hoarder. Never before was I like this. And I know why. I know why it's so hard now to get rid of anything. Because I am so scared of all that I have already lost. And I wonder. If people knew that they had a choice between dousing human beings with water or drinking it if that was all that was left, what would you do then? What would you do?
We are wasting our resources left and right. And our human footprint keeps growing. We are lucky in many ways that every shelf on out markets are full. But you know what happens when a storm comes. What goes first? Bread and water. Just like that. What we had so abundantly is just wiped out. I remember being in a storm and losing powers for weeks. You could not get ice and water without having to stand in lines for hours. People were fighting. Stealing. Becoming heathens. In only hours. It happens that fast. So why then are we putting oil before water. Because for the life of me, I don't recall hearing anyone in line for oil??? Makes no sense. And I have thought about this a lot in the last couple of years.
When people have to go out of their way to harrass me, like help me I need to find a boyfriend, a few things cross my mind. Like what the fuck is wrong with this person. Then I can't believe people like this exist. And then true heartbreak. Seriously. I just want to have good sex food fun water family friends. And I won't bother you all one bit. I would think that would be your focus too. But if you have that sort of mentality that you are against a good life it tells me you're missing a key component to your life. And that's a heart. No other way to put it. And if you are cutting off good people from supplies in order to freeze them to death. You're just missing it all. You just don't belong here period. If our White House is going to allow this to happen I'm just flat out disgusted with this country and the people who are not running it. You're morons. And you will go down in history as such this time. Because it's true, this time the whole world is watching. Thanks Facebook.
In the meantime I will try to stop hanging on to everything and hopefully find my friends. Especially my friend. I can see why though we do hold on to things, because when you lose what matters to you most, it changes everything. Everything.
Have a good day.