I think back to all you all say about me but rarely about yourselves. You know. I put it out there. At least I'm sober. You don't want sober. Don't care. I do. And the people who questioned why are you still writing him Tina? Like I'm their little kid having to answer to them. I wanted to say why are you still in love with my brother in law!? He's with someone else and so are you. Hmmmm!? I mean just that's how I saw things. But the difference is I never say them because I'm not an asshole judgemental controlling bitch. But today I will be. To point out how it is you can say and judge everything about me yet I can't say a damn thing about you. You ever wonder? Awww. Does it hurt? Good. It should. Because it does. You don't like what I say. Fine. I don't have to like what you say. But I sure can write love and worship whomever the fuck I want. I'm not hurting you. I'm doing everything to save myself. What are you all doing? Still got your bottles of wine for your guests to grab at endlessly. I just don't care. I was a drunk and none of you helped me. And now I'm sober and you don't either. So yeah. I'm better with out you. But boy oh boy would I love to have weebly give me every name who comes to my blog. Just to know who reads but never calls. Would be so interesting. I don't even care if any of you ever read again. Only the sacred get this.
I also wouldn't mind a real giant body guard capable of kicking anyone's ass who thinks they had or have a right to have said any of the shit you've said. If you don't care about rules rape threats terrorism or any of it that's happened to me then go get your time with my body guard. Seriously. Wouldn't you want that for your daughter if she was treated the way you all have treated me. Telling me I can't call the damn cops when I'm threatend. I know exactly what's going on. I know because I have known people like this all my life. I know bullies. You want me to shut up because you hate what I say. Which are all 100% facts. But whatever. I don't need a body guard to protect me from anyone like you. You're already doing your own selves in. What. Did you think I would just let it go that it's okay to run me over. No one else is here backing me up. I gave you the pool. Go have fun. Just stay away from me unless you actually have compassion and care about everything I've been through which probably just one of these things would have made you truly see why I stand up the way I do. Do not rape me. I mean it.